My best wishes are there for you...............
(Sat, 19 Mar 2005 15:11:15 )
My dear Friend,
It was so easy for you to tell me to forget you. It is easy to tell theses words "forget me". But have you tried it on yourself? It is very difficult to do it. It was very very difficult for me to fall in love as well. How could I forget you? There is nothing, absolutely nothing that I can forget about you and me. There was a time in my life, when I allowed loneliness and isolation to become my habits. Loneliness and isolation became me. Because they gave me strange sense of security. You and your love brke through the bars of my prison and demand that I come out into the sunshine and live amongotherpeople and enjoy life. I told you time and again, that I do not believe in love. I told you many times, that I was hurt in my past. But I do not know, some how, you were able to win my heart. I started to believe you and in your love. Very slowly you became a very important person. But now......?I feel as if the worst that could possibly happen to me has alrerady happened and I have lived through it. More than that, I have found out that what ever happens, I cannot stop myself from going on living. My heart goes on beating even though I know that it is broken, my lungs go on pumping the air and I have to have food even though i do not feel like eating.....It is well said that we hurt the ones that we love. I am sorry if what I am doing hurts you. But you know, strength comes from facing pain, from dealing it. Pain is the part and the parcel of being human. So I guess, it is always like this. To get a heart broken time and again. Just because we are human.We used to be comfortable together and we used to communicate openly. But today there is a tension and that makes me weigh my every word before I speak. I do not know what went wrong..... But I know it hurts to feel this way and I wish we could go back to yesterday and find each other the same people we were back then. But.....????It is true that we do not know what we have got until we have lost it. I did not want to say good bye to you. Because I wanted to try. I did not want to give it up. Because I believe that if you love some one then you should never let it go. I wanted to try so badly, but I guess I was too late...I haven't got any choice at all. I will wait for you because you are worth for. I want you to remember that. You are worth for it. One day,there will be some one else in your live. But I know that you will still remember me and one part of you will always love me.All I will say to you, is go for some one who can make you smile because I think only a smile can bright up the dark hours. I hope you will find that person who makes you smile. May you have enough happiness. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You cannot go on well with life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.We can always be friends. If you ever need me then you know where to find me. Just remember that I have not stopped loving you.
Sincerely,
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(Sat, 19 Mar 2005 15:11:15 )
My dear Friend,
It was so easy for you to tell me to forget you. It is easy to tell theses words "forget me". But have you tried it on yourself? It is very difficult to do it. It was very very difficult for me to fall in love as well. How could I forget you? There is nothing, absolutely nothing that I can forget about you and me. There was a time in my life, when I allowed loneliness and isolation to become my habits. Loneliness and isolation became me. Because they gave me strange sense of security. You and your love brke through the bars of my prison and demand that I come out into the sunshine and live amongotherpeople and enjoy life. I told you time and again, that I do not believe in love. I told you many times, that I was hurt in my past. But I do not know, some how, you were able to win my heart. I started to believe you and in your love. Very slowly you became a very important person. But now......?I feel as if the worst that could possibly happen to me has alrerady happened and I have lived through it. More than that, I have found out that what ever happens, I cannot stop myself from going on living. My heart goes on beating even though I know that it is broken, my lungs go on pumping the air and I have to have food even though i do not feel like eating.....It is well said that we hurt the ones that we love. I am sorry if what I am doing hurts you. But you know, strength comes from facing pain, from dealing it. Pain is the part and the parcel of being human. So I guess, it is always like this. To get a heart broken time and again. Just because we are human.We used to be comfortable together and we used to communicate openly. But today there is a tension and that makes me weigh my every word before I speak. I do not know what went wrong..... But I know it hurts to feel this way and I wish we could go back to yesterday and find each other the same people we were back then. But.....????It is true that we do not know what we have got until we have lost it. I did not want to say good bye to you. Because I wanted to try. I did not want to give it up. Because I believe that if you love some one then you should never let it go. I wanted to try so badly, but I guess I was too late...I haven't got any choice at all. I will wait for you because you are worth for. I want you to remember that. You are worth for it. One day,there will be some one else in your live. But I know that you will still remember me and one part of you will always love me.All I will say to you, is go for some one who can make you smile because I think only a smile can bright up the dark hours. I hope you will find that person who makes you smile. May you have enough happiness. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You cannot go on well with life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.We can always be friends. If you ever need me then you know where to find me. Just remember that I have not stopped loving you.
Sincerely,
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