Feb 21, 2006


Samarpit timi ma mero yo jiwan
Chuti sakyo aaba ta harek bandhaan
Aadhaar lii timro samjhana ko
Hansi dinchu lukai yo rodaan

Bastavikta ko bhumari ma
Niradayee yo sansaar ma
Khojne chaina timilai ma feri
Na ta bhettaune nai chau timile bholi

Schoko thiyena kahiliye pani
Antim bhet hamro hola tesari bhani
Na ta thaneki nai thiye maile
Anshu mero upahaar banalla bhani

Timro upahaar rakhane chu sanchera sandhai
Sansaar bata tadha, maan bhitra lukai
Skdina bhantheu herna ansu mero ankhama
Diyera gayeu tehi aaja upahaar ko roop ma

Two poems I wrote this morning

When I write a poem,
It does not always rhyme.
But whenever I see you,
My face will always shine.

I can't write a poem,
Thought this, nearly gave up.
But this desire to be with you,
It just did not stop.

I wrote a poem years ago,
It was very long.
Now its you that I love,
These feelings are too strong.

I tried again last weekend,
To write a poem new.
Though I couldn't write one then,
I was sure I loved you.

I've told you what my feelings are,
Never done this before.
That's because I felt there were,
Many things in store.

A little guilty, that's how I feel,
For opening my heart.
Now if you don't come to me,
I may just fall apart.

But never happy would I be,
If only for me, you came.
So, come to me only if,
You also feel the same.

I don't know about you
No, I know you a lot
All these years, been together
Sometimes even fought

But I don't know how you feel
What's inside your mind?
Hope it's not someone else
That you're trying to find

I told you all about me
There's nothing you don't know
If you really love me
Let your feelings show

Was waiting for you all day
Wouldn't you have been sad?
My slap was a sign of love
So please now, don't be mad

If there are things you don't like
You just have to say
I'll try to improve myself
From that very day

But listen to one last thing
Never put me behind the cloud
If you don't love me anymore
Just spell it out loud


??? ???...go away and leave meh alone... ??? ???
with my pain,with my sorrow
let meh drink... Beer... all my un-happiness
in the WINE in the glass
you were there,life was there
feeling iz gone with the wind
see meh drunk... Beer... in some corner
drop a tear... :'(... and walk away with...SOME-1
??? ??? ???

My First Time

The sky was dark
The moon was high
All alone
Just her and I

Her hair so soft
Her eyes so blue
I knew just what
She wanted to do

Her skin so soft
Her legs so fine
I ran my fingers
Down her spine

I didn't know how
But I tried my best
To place my hand
On her breasts

I remember my fear
My fast beating heart
But slowly she spread
Her legs apart

And when she did it
I felt no shame
All at once
The white stuff came

At last it's finished
It's all over now
My first time
Milking a cow!

My lonely heart

Everyday Comes and Goes
Each Night I'm Alone
I Can't Seem To Think Clearly
I'm Left Here On My Own
I Walk Down The Crowded Avenue
People All Around
Something Is not Here That I Miss
I Look Inside Myself
There Is Only Emptiness
Or I Can Walk On A Lonely road
No One Here By My Side
If I Told U I'm Happy Now
That’s Not the Truth...
I Lied...
I Could Continue This Path I'm On
I Could Probably Make It through
I've Everything I Need to Get By
The One thing Missing In My Life
"Is You"

"हार "

जिन्दगीको रंगमंचमा
उपहासको पात्र बनेकी छु
संसारको भीड बिच
फेरी आज एक्लिएकी छु म
प्रेमिहरुले सजिएको संसारमा
प्रेमि बिहिन प्रेमिका बन्न पुगेकी छु म
मन भित्र उर्लिएको बेदना लुकाइ
मौनताको मुर्ति बनेकी छु म
बितेका ती पलहरुलाई सम्झि
सपनाको उपनाम दिन पुगेकी छु म
काहिले नछुट्टिने हाम्रो बाचालाई
झुठो ठान्न पुगेकी छु म
कसैको जीतमा खुसि मान्दै
आफ्नै "हार"मा पनि हाँस्न पुगेकी छु म
आफ्नै "हार"मा पनि आज रमाउन पुगेकी छु म॥ :) :) :)

अन्तिम बिदाइ

बितेका पलहरुलाई दाइजो बनाइ
लुकेका आँसुले प्यास बुझाइ
जांदैछु टाढा आज म प्रीय
देउ मलाइ अन्तिम......

अधुरो हाम्रो सपनालाई त्यागि
छुट्टिदै छु म पराई आँगनको लागि
क्षेमा देउ आज मलाई बिन्ति छ प्रीय तिमीलाई
हुँदै छिन तिम्रो प्रिय पराई......

डोली सजाइ गयता पनि
नठान्नु मलाइ जिउदो भनि
मोर्न सकिन तिम्रो प्रीय आज
शरीर जिउदो भयता पनि.....

गर्ने छैन बाचा अर्को जीवनको लागि
माग्ने छैन ईश्वर संग फेरि तिमि
हेर्न सक्दिन तिमिलाई म दु:खी
जिउन सक्दिन जिउदो लाश बनि......

हाम्रो मायाको बाचा देउ मलाइ
बिर्सिदिन्छु मलाइ भनि
भेट भएछ भने फेरि पनि
अपरिचित बनिदिनु भेटेको कहिले थिएन भनि.... Sad Sad

"it's still a dream. please wake me up"

Maybes. That's probably what my world hinges on.
I never thought I'd be writing something for you.
To tell you the truth, I never wanted to.
Even now, I wish could change something.
Something that will clear these words from the paper.

But, some things just happen and there's nothing I can do.
And, other things don't seem to happen and again there's nothing I can do.
Maybe it wasn't something to have made it happen,
But if it was, then maybe that's where I faltered.
I was waiting, hoping so bad.
But finally it seems, it's time that I have happened to run out of.

I still don't want to let go.
I still want to hold on.
I don't want to see any reason, I just don't want it to end.
But maybe it shouldn't carry on either.
I remember telling you, I wished it hadn't begun.
And the only reason is that the end is unbearable and so abrupt.
I just didn't see it coming.

I always thought I was strong.
But then this is not the pain I am used to.

I always thought illusions were tougher.
But I guess memories are as painful.

I will miss everything that we shared.
And the things we couldn't.

A Luv Story that will Touch Your Heart

This is True Love
There was once a guy who suffered from cancer... a cancer that can't be treated. He was 18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother. He never went outside but he was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once.
So he asked his mother and she gave him permission. He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as he walked. He stopped and went back to look into the store. He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk where she sat.
She looked up and asked "Can I help you?" She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.
He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it.
"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.
He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.
So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...

The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"
It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't know? He passed away yesterday...
" The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD...

Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

Love is... when you've had a huge fight but then decide to put aside your egos, hold hands and say, "I Love You"

Real Story about a Girl.....

The Destiny of Someone due to the other who Drinks and Drives.....

This is Jaqueline Saburido on September 19, 1999.

This is she and her Father, 1998.

This is she on Vacation in Venezuela.

Birthday party as a child.

At a party with friends.

The car in which Jacqueline travelled. She was hit by another car that was driven by a 17-year old male student on his way home after a couple of hard packs with his friends. This was in December 1999.

After the accident Jacqueline has needed over 40 operations.

Jacqueline was caught in the burning car and her body was heavily burnt during around 45 seconds.

With her Father, 2000.

Getting treatment.

Three months after accident.

Without a left eyelid Jacqie needs eyedrops to keep her vision.

Now 20 year old, he cannot forgive himself for driving drunk on that night three years ago.
He s aware of devastating Jaqcueline Saburido s life.

Not everyone who gets hit with a car dies. This picture was taken 4 years after the accident and the doctors are still working on Jacqueline, who s body was covered with 60% severe burnings.

Soo ...alone ..

life has always been kind to me .giving me all that I've ever wanted,until the day came when .......it took everything from me,making me sooo alone in the eye of the world.

I,the only child got everything I wanted ...so much love,noone could ever imagine ........the way I was brought up it was so joyous tht still when i dream abt it, it gives me a slithering experience ....... but life isn't always in the arms of ur fantacy,u've got to rise up from it n see the outside world n it was here when I first experienced the real meaning of love,heard so much abt it but felt it for once ....which last for the lifetime .......I felt soo happy that I have someone to share my thoughts n a shoulder to lean on, I was soo happy ...life seemed beautiful then before,I could see people smiling everywhere .....indeed it felt like love was in the air,I loved this person soo much ...I could do anything for him,even kill myself ........ then a time came when she stopped showing me her love,stopped meeting me or calling .......................I was broken,I cried for help but who could help ?? there's noone to help in love .....u r indeed alone, I cried for months ..mailed her,tried to call her but ....in vain, then oneday came to know that the person whom I had loved more than my own life has become a stranger,she married .........................but it didn't stop me from loving her......I wanted to meet her just for once n tell her how much I've loved her,how much I've done for her ,just once .........but she didn't listen to me, she pointed me out n threw me from her life forever n ever .........................It seemed like a bad dream then but when I woke up,found it was true .....yes,I was betrayed ..yes,I was thrown in the garbage somewhere ..yes,I was fooled in love ...........