stolen dreams and broken promises.......

I don't know what to expect frm my life anymore...............or else I wouldn't be this hopeless.............I don't understand why I always end up unhappy after I reach my goals......maybe I am too optimistic abt everything or too pessi.......I can't understand myself ...............n the way my life is heading ..........a big question mark looms over my head ................and even bigger uncertainty is engulfing me...........I see no way out .....just trapped inside this world of fake affection and borrowed happiness...............I see lights at the end of the tunnel but when I reach there its already burned out ............nothin is there ...just pitch black......darkness that keeps pursuing me..........I am running away but when I look clearly ...I see myself getting closer to it.......as if I am running towards it............tears roll down my eyes as if it were a never ending fountain..............my heart just swells down with sorrow ..........just help me oh lord...........don't let the devils tear me apart......show me the way..to those tranquil place ...where my heart can feel free.........where ......I can feel safe .........happy...........wonderful.............